Care is something you can get from your friends. Therapy isn't.by Anna Blundy / May 19, 2016 / Leave a comment
Published in June 2016 issue of Prospect Magazine
I have a patient who reminds me a bit of Amy Winehouse. She dresses in a way that’s ultra-feminine but aggressive at the same time. “What do you mean? It’s just how I dress.” Just! I love just! It comes up all the time in therapy. Nothing is just anything (not even a cigar). She is fantastically self-destructive. “Why shouldn’t I drink and do drugs? I’m not hurting anyone else?” She is terribly sad. “Isn’t everyone? And nothing you say will change the past anyway.” She is chronically lonely. “Everyone always leaves. But that’s life, right?” I think I used to be a bit like her.
When Winehouse died, in 2011, I remember saying to my children: “Silly girl! I wish she’d have come to stay with us. I’d have made garlicky roast chicken and lemon tart and given her a cuddle.” I think I half-believed that this might have worked, contrary to everything I already knew about psychotherapy. There are cuddles-and-sympathy therapists, the kind lampooned on television—plump women in cardigans and fat beads. They listen sympathetically and smile warmly. It doesn’t work, of course. Care is something you can get from your friends. Therapy isn’t. For the cloying approach to work you’d have to be dealing with someone able to accept sympathy (not Amy), and then you’d have to deny all the stuff the patient brings up in you that isn’t sympathy, so the whole thing’s a lie, basically. I remember hating my analyst for not seeming to be on my side in reported conflicts with work or lovers, and despising him for sounding all mock sympathetic (I later realised it…