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As my mental health declined, I started fantasising that I was related to Goebbels. Soon it all became too much and I swallowed 100 pills—but now things are slowly getting better

By CAR Hills   August 2007

Last year was the worst year of my life. On Christmas Eve 2005, I unexpectedly, at the age of 50, went into my first episode of psychosis. This lasted until March and, because my delusions had been giving me hope, was followed by deep depression.

The worsening of my mental health was connected with the deaths, in 2002 and 2004, of my parents. I had had a poor relationship with my father, and did not see him for the last 20 years of his life. In contrast, I had been deeply attached to my mother, but this relationship also ended…

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