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Out of mind

Throughout the stages of my life it is the occasional decorative detail I remember, not the "I" of subjective experience. In fact, I'm not unlike my amnesiac patient

By Paul Broks   December 2004

A fat baby stuffing its face. Two small boys in a tin bath. Boy standing next to a Christmas tree. Six months? Four years? Five or six? Ages are approximate; the photographs (some of which are above) are not dated. Moving on: boy in Wolverhampton Wanderers football strip. Top Dog studs on dubbined leather ball. About nine. Morose twelve year old, eating sandwiches from a Wonderloaf wrapper. Thirteen: cricket sweater, striped shirt. Fifteen: pale adolescent frame half-submerged in black pond. Eighteen: sipping beer against a white wall in monochrome sunshine. Long hair, Lennon specs. Then on to the next decade,…

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