After a life of crime, the narrator has to cope with Feltham prisonby Gabriel Krauze / July 15, 2020 / Leave a comment
After leading a life of crime on the streets of South Kilburn, the narrator has to survive in the harsh environment of Feltham jail. Author Gabriel Krauze explains: “Often the truth is disturbing and ugly. Everything in this story was experienced by me in one way or another—otherwise I wouldn’t be able to tell it. It’s a world full of untold stories, a reality that most people only catch a glimpse of in the news and on TV, but which is lived by many on the edge of society’s gaze. This is the life I chose”
And jump out the whip and I’m hitting the pavement and it’s this moment—when you jump out of the car and it’s too late to go back—when you know that you’re definitely gonna do it now, even though the way the adrenaline bursts through your body makes you wish for a second that you weren’t here. And now we’re creeping up the street, she’s too far ahead of us, we got the timing wrong but we can’t run to catch up because that will alert her and she’ll turn around, so we’re creeping fast. The bally is hugging my face tight and I’ve also pulled my hood over it and I feel the adrenaline explode in the pit of my chest like a dying star and it’s like my entire body has turned into the pumping of my heart.
And I’m creeping up fast to get behind her and Gotti is right there beside me and she hasn’t heard us, not the way we’re moving, low to the ground, black cotton Nike tracksuits on so there’s no sound of clothes rustling, Nike trainers silent on the pavement. And for a few heartbeats I notice how everything on the street seems like someone’s idea of a peaceful life, sun floating overhead, bulging in the sky’s belly, washing the street below in a brightness that breaks over everything; neat rows of perfect houses, polished green bushes lining the pavement, the cool metal smell of morning, and now the woman pushes a gate open and turns off the street and she’s walking up a small path to her front door.
And we’ve fucked up the timing but we can still get her on her doorstep so we start running, still tryna be stealthy but…