"It struck me that having a safe mind to turn to is what psychotherapy is about"by Anna Blundy / October 16, 2014 / Leave a comment
Published in November 2014 issue of Prospect Magazine
We all study faces for potential hostility. In normal life we smile at each other, raise or take a hand and do our best to seem benign and avert aggression. “Don’t worry,” we try to say, “you’re safe with me.” A baby inevitably scrutinises mother’s face all the time and, ideally, equates that face, the touch and smell of her skin, the sound of her voice and her capacity to feed him or her, with safety. If the mother (or primary caregiver) is, to use post-Freudian psychoanalyst Donald Winnicott’s phrase, “good enough,” then baby goes out into life with a fundamental sense of security.
I was talking to a very unwell woman last week. She has a history of abuse, serious addiction (drugs, anorexia, alcohol) and mental illness. She is affluent and therefore perhaps protected from the rock bottom state that might ensure treatment. When she does choose to be treated, she often rejects that treatment in favour of dangerous self-medication, dismissing therapists and psychiatrists on any available grounds (social status, gender, personality). She is very worried, she told me, about her children. Her daughter, 14, has been self-harming and has told teachers she is suicidal. She is plagued by phobias and sometimes can’t leave the house for weeks at a time. Both children have learning disabilities but her son, eight, is increasingly unable to cope at school and she is considering removing him from mainstream education altogether. She is frantically overwhelmed by their mass of issues and chaotic states of mind and she worries that her disintegrating marriage is to blame.