I worry I didn’t describe the process well enough to him at the beginning, but it’s almost impossible to describe what relative wellness feels like before it has happenedby Anna Blundy / September 12, 2017 / Leave a comment
Published in October 2017 issue of Prospect Magazine
“I’ve got nothing to say. I don’t know why I come,” he begins with a big sigh and an eye roll to the polystyrene ceiling. “I mean, how many sessions will it take?” he asks, leaning forward. This is a challenge. He smiles in an “I’ve got you now, huh?” kind of way and folds his arms.
Every week he wonders what the point of this whole therapy business is, when he’ll be better, why I don’t give him a progress report. He wants me to say; “Well done. We have finished Unit A and are now onto Unit B. Only two more units to go until you’re completely cured!”
So, every week I’m under pressure to defend psychotherapy, at least to myself. “Well, you do seem less anxious,” I say, trying to award myself points. “So, have we finished?” he asks.
This man’s mother died when he was five and his father went for a Victorian grit-your-teeth-and-get-on-with-it-lad approach. He wants me to tell him he’s a good boy, doing brilliantly at therapy and that I won’t ever leave him. He, however, is desperate to leave me.