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On coming to terms with my stepfather

By John Lloyd   November 1995

I have recently had one of the most important second thoughts of my life. I decided to stop hating my stepfather.


I had hated him for some 40 years. I had hated him for insinuating himself into the home where I was being brought up by my mother and grandparents: for his awkwardness and weakness in front of my mother; for his narrowness, his distrustfulness, for his greed and meanness, for the state of tension in which he held himself and all about him. I knew that he a Pole had been through Nazi invasion, Soviet prison camps, the…

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